Ends 2 (Stop Hope)
I wonder why everyone here is very good to me. Though they just know me. Similarly, the dian, tomboyish girl who was also changed slightly odd character. And I'm still wondering why they are often called by the name chika. Chika Who exactly is it? So much berartikah her to the point that they think chika.
The day was already one month I made friends with them. As long as I feel comfortable with their kindness terlau I'm not uncomfortable with their call to me. But now is over already, I'm not chika but I visya.
Today is very strange to me. From the beginning I have been here I have never seen a pack of Arya smiled sweetly at me. But today he is smiling somewhere on who I definitely can see a sweet smile on her lips. Not only was Mr. Arya came up to me and talk to me. I never thought fun to chat with the teacher on this one. I'm embarrassed every time he looked at me and looked at my eyes. Excited and I feel there is a feeling that comes back when he looked into my eyes.
I tried to ask the meta, friend bench me. "Who actually chika it? Why are all always call me that? Does he like me? "Meta just smiled and did not answer with a single word because diki pack at the same time entering the classroom. diki pack was also being different to me today. It's the day that baffles me. I guess what really happened on this day, but my brain is not able to linger thinking about it.
I returned home from school when asked, not the meta but the pious. Stuttering guy kind and always helping me. "Who actually chika it? Why are all always call me that? Does he like me? This time the smile that I can not but applause pious in my shoulder. "Yes ampunnn, when I get a definite answer from that question?" "Chika, I go home first yah ..." said Davina me. Huftz ...
I walked while continuing to think of the possible answers that question. But someone stopped in front and menghadangku. "Let's ride" the man said. I see from toe to head, it turns out that Arya pack. I just shut up and smiled when he found out. Back pack Arya said "let's ride, I was among you come back" I declined the invitation pack and leave the pack Arya Arya just as he continued walking.
Ugh, I should really stupid had been able to take advantage of Arya pack to get an answer who exactly chika it.
Until the house I immediately lay down on the sofa lelahku.
"Thank you has made him smile again, please take care of him loved him while it can. Do not make her smile disappeared and invite deterioration in her "
"Who are you?"
"I am you."
"What do you mean?"
"Thank you for your presence at his side"
A figure pretty and graceful girl came up and before long he was gone. I wonder who he is but it was enough to make my dream was soundly and woke up. "Tuhaannn, especially with this? Why lately many strange things that I'm feeling? I immediately went to the bathroom to wash my face. When entering my bedroom voice sounded loud and it really surprised me. The sound of my phone will meberitahuku one message received. Huh heart would make dislodged wrote.
One message from a person without a name. "I was near the house, should I stop?" I replied "you know who" messageku was rewarded and it turns out that Arya pack. arya pack huh? Where can my cell phone number? Due to feel not good, I was finally allowed him to stop.
"Well, please come in the pack."
"The house you? Staying at anybody? "
"Just the same mother,"
"Your father?"
"Father already died when I was in Grade 2 smp"
"Ohh sorry dear, I do not know"
"Ahh? Ohh yes it was fine pack "
I was surprised when he menagatakan dear. But I do not really think about these words. Juice was again present on the sidelines I and pack Arya. a feeling that I did not understand. But certainly it gives a sense of serenity when near Arya pack. ohh tuhannn what is this? My heart was beating very fast, my fingers felt stiff and cold. Huftz ...
After coming back pack arya I feel very happy. At first glance I could think about was my dream. Who's that girl? Why did he thank me? But again I failed to guess someone knocked on my door. It turns out my Mother. I was told all the events that I think is strange on the mother, but she just smiled and did not comment on anything.
1 month later,
I stepped through the gates of the school. And there was no pack arya that have been waiting for. Finally we go to school together. Yupz, correct me and pack Arya was invented. Precisely already two weeks ago. My days are very lovely with him, especially when he was teaching in my class. Although we invented but we remain professional and act like teachers and students. Many unsuspecting friend to me not a few of them also interrogated about my closeness to the arya pack. but as time passes they allow the relationship. "Sya, let's go home together." Invite vina. I wonder because he seldom really talk to me. I just smiled and said "next time vin aja yah, I've no jan ~" unfinished I said he grabbed "ma promise pack arya yah?" A little awkward for said yes but he was already familiar. "Yes already I first well" he continued.
As I walked knows how many steps I saw a girl smiling sweetly from kejauhanku. At first glance I remember my dream some time ago. when I turned to think that a girl who knows where it goes. Before I know where to go in the pack Arya come and hold my hand. "Let's go home, what are you doing here ntar conceded just stunned you" do not say anything myself I finally went home.
I lay my body on a sofa in the bedroom, not until I closed my eyes again see the shadow figure of a girl who had smiled at me. He held out his hand and it seems like he wants to give me something. As I approached with fear widening his smile made the hairs on my body stood up. Step by step I bejalan when going up on his hands, the sound of my cell phone rang. Ah !! I immediately turned me see my phone, when I turned back to the girl, again, he has disappeared. I picked up the phone and turns pack Arya who phoned.
I await the arrival of a pack of Arya in a park near the town, while waiting I was listening to music on the phone. Arrival Arya pack and the pack did not I realize Arya did not want to awaken me. As I opened my eyes the shadow that appears. Ah !! I looked left and there he sat staring at the Arya pack full of love. There I was joking banter with him and correct him like an angel that God sent to a girl like me. Occasionally I muttered silently grateful for my life today with his presence, with his love and all that is in him. He gave me the meaning of life that I had never tasted. Smile that could melt my mind over the years.
Throughout the afternoon until late evening I spent with him was a very short time in the middle of the city. And in the end he took me home and leave me with a sweet kiss on the forehead. "Good night" the voice whispered in the ear gently. I also replied with a gentle kiss on the cheek mainland, "night too, be carefull". Back smile accompany it step by step.
Mother greeted with help smiling. "You happy with it?" I shyly nodded, "he'em bund". "Hmmmh yes already you bathe there mother Masakin favorite food," continued the mother. I went to my room and quickly shower. We will straighten hair, I saw a message from Mr. Arya. "I LOVE U" only said that she had sent, I was just smiling saaat read a message from him. "LOVE U so much" that is what I sent to him. Mother has called me quickly I left but returned a shadow hp'ku girl was present with his trademark smile. Fears arise and I ignored it I immediately went to see the mother.
Finished dinner I returned to the room, while opening the drawer I saw a piece of paper containing the address of a donor liver and eyes. I also ask the mother and the mother explain in detail to me. I also understand and intend to go to that address.
At school I was just telling meta, when I tell the address she was shocked and like remembering something I did not know. "You know it's address? Ntar antarin I was there well. Want yah meth .. pleaseee "I begged the good girl. "I can only offer up his front nganter talaga sya, I will not be accompanying you enter the house because I have an appointment for later accompany my mother to the airport." He replied. "Hmmh oke deh gak papa" I replied.
After school I went directly to the address and the meta and meta left in front of a house that was not too pretentious. I entered the house, and the woman's age is really a surprise mother opened the door as he had learned of my arrival. He also mempersilahkanku to get in and not a single word I remove him know if I was the person who received the donor heart and the eyes of his son who died.
"You certainly visya, right?" He asked.
"Ehmm yes aunt, aunt who is this, how aunt know? Though the new visya first time here. "
"Ya know lah, you can call me aunt rin. Hmmh, a few months ago a child died aunt and aunt to donate his eyes to his age who are blind due to an accident. "
"Not only that, after the aunt knew the child was also suffering from cirrhosis, liver freezing. Tante also intends to provide a child's heart to her aunt. And the child you love "story to me, stroking my hair loose.
"Ehmm aunt, aunt living continues now with whom?"
"Aunt alone, aunt husband died one year before the child's aunt died"
"Aunt, visya sometime play again here well, visya want to accompany aunt. Let tante not lonely "I said to the woman.
"Happily aunt will always welcome you here."
"Yes already visya home first yah aunt, aunt sometime visya play well at home."
I even stepped out of the house and went straight home. In the opposite direction I saw a pack of Arya whether he wants to go. When they want to send a message to him turned out hp'ku lowbat. Ishhh finally I'm home while continuing to think the place to be addressed Arya pack.
The next day after school I asked Arya pack to accompany me to go to the lake. But the pack Arya refused on the grounds he had an appointment with someone. I was suspicious and intend to follow the pack trip Arya stealth. I was surprised because the pack Arya along the road that yesterday, and I stopped following the steps in a bend. I did not continue my footsteps because I'm afraid she does know where I was. I went back home with suspicion.
When I got home I sat in front of my desk and stared at the photo of Mr. Arya. I wonder about what is actually happening in the photo, was so upset I threw the photograph in the trash in my room. But the affection that told me to take the picture back and clutched the photograph in my night sleep.
"Yesterday afternoon where?"
"To a friend's house."
"Bo'ong"
"Real dear, I do not bo'ong"
I left the pack arya with sullen faces. And more annoying again he did not step was moved from where he was standing. I kept away from the pack Arya turned my feet. at the break I went to the back yard of the school and there I heard a girl singing melodious. Occasionally appeared but too sweetly fears that voice that I felt very calm and relaxed.
When home from school I immediately left the school without telling a pack of Arya. I intend to go to Aunt rin. And again I saw a pack of Arya walked past the corner yesterday afternoon. Was annoyed because no one else from the pack arya message. I ran hoping to still see traces of the pack Arya but I lost track of him.
Annoyed I undo my intention to meet aunt rin and I sent a personal driver mother picked me up. Got home I entered the room upset and slammed the door. And then I started thinking that I betrayed Arya pack. I was crying uncontrollably regardless of if anyone else would be bothered by the sound of tears. Fortunately, the mother was not at home so I do not need to fear the super sound.
Suspicions grew when I often see Arya pack pass through these roads. But this time I did not hesitate to continue the pace. I kept going until I arrived in front of Aunt rin. There is one motor on the page, but I did not realize it belonged to Arya pack. I was immediately entered and instantly move my legs become stiff because I saw a pack of Arya in the rin aunt's house. I stepped away and did not want entering the house it beforehand.
I hear all the conversation the two men. And it turns out they were talking about me. I'm more curious and continue to eavesdrop on their conversation. Occasionally they discuss chika too. But curiosity was so tebentur head on a door window. Auhh !! Direct I shut my mouth and walked dodge. Shortly after the pack Arya out of the house, and I ventured to meet aunt rin.
"Afternoon tante"
"Visya .. here login"
"Aunt was visya tough guy out of the house aunt, if visya may know she is well aunt?"
"Ohh it's called Arya, her son's girlfriend aunt before she died. Initially the child's aunt aunt does not like going out with him but eventually bless aunt aunt because it was the happiness of children. Although the child is already dead aunt she still frequently visited aunt here. Tante tante already consider themselves children. "
"I might want to know the story of the child visya aunt with that guy before tante"
"They had a school, he was the teacher of children's aunt. He was very attentive to the child's aunt to the extent that they fall in love. One night they went both of them and on his return he kissed the child's aunt. Although he did not manage to kiss the child's aunt, aunt still do not like it. And aunt forbade associated with that guy. But they still kept in touch and aware of their love aunt aunt eventually allow them to date. Shortly after they got permission aunt, aunt child fell into the ravine behind the school and he died instantly "
"Ehmm aunt is enough story. Visya not want to see aunt cried. Already well aunt, aunt ambilin visya white water "
"Visya aunt assume you already own child's aunt. You substitute chika "
"Chika?"
"Yeah, the child's aunt chika name"
Time already before sunset, I also said goodbye on the way home and I tried to draw conclusions from earlier stories. I guess even if the name chika they often call me aunt child is chika rin, which in essence is a person who has donated his eyes and his heart to me. And I guess the girl who came to me in a dream it is chika.
The school I went to pack Arya and told him all that I'm feeling these days. Without me knowing Arya pack immediately understand and he explained about everything. He explained about his past with chika. He is also the story of the tragedy of death chika very fast. But my faith turned into suspicion I suspect if he had only look chika side of me and he did not love but chika. Chika who although had died but the heart and the eyes are still alive in me.
I also went to the ravine that make chika died. I vent my anger there.
"Aarrgghh ... why are you so cruel to me tuhann. What did I do wrong? You gave me the opportunity to be able to see your power with the eyes of others. You gave me the opportunity to be able to feel the love and affection with another person's heart. I'm grateful for all the Tuhannn, but why now you give me a reply with a very deep pain. This heart is not mine, but I could still feel a sense of love for another person who is not of this heart. Neither myself or cruel? On the other hand I can let somebody love me but if chika accept this tuhann? He often came up if it means he iklas or even her angry? Aarrrggghhh ... You're cruel tuhannn. I'm angry at-MU .. "
Fell myself facing the abyss. And really almost got myself falling but someone managed to pull. Someone who has been haunted. Yes, chika.
"Kauuu, chika Did you?"
"Did that give you the eyes and hearts of this?"
"Yeah, I'm chika. God entrusted me to give you a chance to return the contents of the world can see and feel the beauty of love. And I'm also that during this haunt. My intention is not to scare you but want to direct you to be able to make a fully Arya pack love not love me. But I think my attitude was wrong. Forgive me "
"What should I do? I love pack Arya but I can not accept it if he just made me impingement. I understand these eyes may tell if chika back to life and united in my body. And this heart also assured him that if I was you. I'm sick to accept this reality. I'm not you. "
"Forgive him if you really love and love her. Return knit story from the beginning. And make him see yourself completely instead of seeing myself that accommodate life in you. You should be able to, and I will go quietly and no one will haunt you again. Just by looking at Arya pack can move on me and find other people who deserve him that can make me happy and go with a light smile. "
"No !!! I have no right to continue this. Already quite sick of me and I will put an end to this love for him. I'll stop in this state. I give up ... I could not anymore .. "
"Tidakk! You have to keep fighting for the love "
"I did the last he's changed? What is the guarantee? Nobody, right? It will all be useless and would only be futile hopes. I will not let myself be disappointed for a second time. Will never .. "
I left the place and returned to school. In front of the entire class mates I returned to rebel
"You guys .. you all evil. Why is not there one person who told me about chika? Why not let nobody when I was going out with a pack of Arya? Why? I have visya not chika. Does all this time you only see chika in me? Not the least you see visya? "
"Ka, ki meaning .." heru replies. But not yet completed his speech he said visya attack.
"Ka? I understand it to you once again I'm not chikaa, I'm not chikaa I have visya. Please .. please do not call me chika .. I'm not chikaaa, arrghhh "
Meta came and calmed me. "I do not chikaaa, I'm not chikaaa" I said in a voice that was barely audible because the person accompanied with cries and hoarse from tenggorokkanku. Meta and she hugged me and cried with me. "Visya, forgive us because we did not tell you about Chika, we still devastated by the loss of Chika. We do not want to lose her good friend like Chika again. When we first saw you honestly just chika existing shadows, we've tried to get rid of the shadow, but we can not, especially when he turns his eyes and heart chika provided to you. Forgive us visya ". I can not say anything just tears that express my feelings. Amid the rush of tears to wash my brain remembered to pack a cursory ground Arya. I immediately took off the arms of meta and also pack light and hurried to find Arya.
I was looking around the school have but I could not find the man who I love it. I wonder what the wind until I lunged back toward the park behind the school. And really pack Arya was there. I walked over and hugged him from behind. He catches hold her hand. "Visya, forgive me" only words he spoke many times. And I can only answer "yes". And at that moment I told
"We desist enough here"
"Do you mean?"
"I do not want to be used as an outlet for your love"
"But sya .."
"Come on, I know you still love chika, even though he was dead. Even if my presence was not right beside you shake your love for her "
“I can repaire my mistake. I promise”
“I’m not need your promise, and I believe that you will not can do it.”
"Sya, give me one more chance, please"
"Sorry sir, (I removed my arms) I was no longer able to. For the first time I played by love, and I know it was very sick. Good bye, thanks for your love to me I'll always remember it. "
"Sya, wait ..."
I left alone Arya pack near the ravine. And today it is also a very painful day because I had to stop loving someone who I love. I realized that love is not always lovely, love does not always have. Therefore, I prefer to avoid the feeling that rather than having to withstand pain protracted ..
End